Tuesday, August 28, 2012

15/16 weeks

Time is starting fly by. Where did August go my goodness! My belly bump is really starting to be prominent! I love this! I still have insecurities, because a lot of it is my chub still. But It is what it is. Baby bumps make your chub stick out making baby bump look bigger than it is... I am just trying to rock it!

I was at a wedding this weekend. I loved my dress. Here is a close up of the bump!

In the beggining of week 15 I felt the baby move 2 times!!!! Well I think I did anyways... it was like a finger tip tapping my inside very low down. I only noticed it those 2 times because I was by chance laying very still and  very relaxed... I have not felt it since :( It was soo amazing I can't wait to feel it over and over and over again. It made my heart fill with pure joy. Like nothing else in this world matters just that tiny bump  bump.

My pregnancy has been going AMAZING. I really only have minor complaints. Mostly I feel totally normal I just pee alot. I can't wait to find out if I am having a boy or a girl. I found out my sister is having a girl!!!! So excited to have my first niece! At first I thought my baby was girl undoubtedly and dreamt of a little girl and wanted a little girl. I now think its a boy, and now I kind of want a boy instead. My husband wants a boy BADLY! Obviously I swing both ways. Whatever that little sweet baby is I will sway in that direction. Which is a big relief. I really thought I wanted a girl and that I might be disappointed if its a boy. And now oddly enough I want a boy instead... but would still be ecsatic if its a girl. What ever dearest baby is... this dearest mommy can't wait to find out!!

I hate wishing my pregnancy away. I love being pregnant, but I am more excited about having the baby. I just don't think I am one of those women who are into pregnancy. In fact knowing I will have to be pregnant for 9 months might sway me in waiting for baby #2 longer than I would wait otherwise. I never thought I would be this way. I thought I would be in love with being pregnant. And it might change as the baby starts moving around and stuff and I get bigger. But I can't help but feel that I can't wait til sweeet baby gets in my arms! Now don't get me wrong I am not complaining about pregnancy or saying I don't enjoy it. I am just simply more excited to have a baby and be a mother. I thought I would be more into pregnancy and I am not feeling that way. I am more into being a mother... and can't wait!

1 comment:

  1. I have to agree with you on not really being a pregnancy person. I'm just too excited for the baby to already be here. I totally get what you're saying. Pregnancy is pregnancy, I can't wait to see the baby. Especially after such a long heartbreaking journey.